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Does talking about meth at
meetings make you want to use?
ozand
angel |
Does talking about meth at meetings make you want to use?
I have a question for anyone that was a meth user. My
sister-in-law supposedly has been off meth for 2 months but says she
doesn't want to attend meetings (such as NA) because she says
talking about meth all the time makes her want to use it again. Has
anyone else found this to be true? Also by talking about meth in
this forum, does it make any of you want to do meth? If so, how long
did it take that craving to subside so you could then talk about it?
My concern is that if you can't handle being around people talking
about it, how are you going to be able to handle it when something
stressful in your life comes up or people at a party, etc.. are
using it? Also, when you would quit, did you get angry with people
when they tried talking to you about how things were going? For
example, whenever her mom asks how everything is going with "the
meth" she gets upset and starts accusing her of not supporting her
emotionally (???) and not believing her when she says she is off of
it. Even though her mom isn't even implying that she doesn't
believer her- she just wants to help. |
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Re: Does talking about meth
at meetings make you want to use?
When I was a newcomer, everything made me think about meth. It
was hard sometimes to even get to a meeting because I there were 2
roads I could take to get there and my dealer's house was inbetween
both roads. I kept coming back and as I worked the program, the
message came true for me. I stopped using drugs, I lost the desire
to use, and I found a new way to live.
I couldn't talk to my family about my drug use until I had a couple
years clean. It was very painful for me. I also would get angry
sometimes because they wouldn't trust me. I understood that why they
didn't, but it still made me angry. One time I called up my dealer
and told him I was having trouble with my family and I wanted to get
high. He asked me what I wanted to do about that and I sighed and
said, "nothing." (thank God)
I also didn't want to talk to my parents and sister about using
because they were unable to relate to me. That's why meetings work.
I knew I could talk to the people there because they understood
addiction because they lived in that prison. And I knew they could
talk about recovery because they were living the freedom.
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ozand
angel
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Re: Does talking about meth
at meetings make you want to use?
Very good information- thank you so much! You sound like a very
strong person and I commend you for that. Thanks for sharing your
story. |
Sfj
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Re: Does talking about meth
at meetings make you want to use?
It is probably different for each person. I remember inviting a
friend from rehab to an NA meeting one time. After the meeting he
told me he was very triggered and sure enough, as soon as he got
home he used. He may have used anyway – who knows.
I go to meetings often and regularly. I usually share as much as
possible also. (yes, I like to talk) But I also keep attuned to
recovery, and recovery related topics. If the “war stories” and
“drugalogues” get too graphic, I just remind my self that, “there
but for the grace of God, go I.”
I feel that I need a constant and definite link with recovery at all
times. I don’t feel strong enough to walk away from my support
systems, including regular attendance at meetings. Additionally, I
feel an obligation to give back and to welcome the newcomers. Being
an example of steadfastness does not require any special knowledge
or skill. It only requires being there. My sponsees expect me to be
there every time I say I will be there. How can I let them down?
This website expects me to be here. I can’t let you guys down
either. That’s just the way I feel about it. Does that mean I’m too
weak to move on? You can decide that.
Meetings are a very important and encouraging part of my life. |
cleanand
serene
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Re: Does talking about meth
at meetings make you want to use?
If a person wants to use they will use. Every time I relapsed
there was a definite decision to get loaded. I always set myself up
to use. Always had reservations. I went to meetings but half assed
the program. I have been to certain meetings that I wouldn't go back
to and I have even cut a few people off that wouldn't stop talking
about dope. When it comes to the glorification of dope that makes me
a little "miffed" and "peeved" to say the least. I am not afraid to
tell someone there glorification bothers me. where I come from most
aren't. I go to meetings where they talk about solution not the
problem. Meetings saved my life. I never realized my "reservations"
until some time clean. It doesn't matter where you are if you set
yourself up to use you will end up loaded. For those that are new to
meetings please find one that you can relate to. Look for the
winners that have time and stick with them. The people that are war
story telling to much have those reservations and they don't even
realize it. Find a meeting you like a home group where there is
solution. And no matter what keep coming back.
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le grumps |
Re: Does talking about meth
at meetings make you want to use?
Neat question.
I was also triggered by anything and everything when I first stopped
using. Meetings were also very triggering.
I found out over time that it wasn't the actual meetings that were
triggering, but it was the feelings that would wash over me (usually
a sense of relief or becoming excited when I learned something new)
that would trigger me.
It wasn't that there was a problem with the meetings. It was that
the good feelings were too intense for me, and made me want to
extinguish them with drugs!
This fades over time. One thing that really made a difference for me
was developing a support group that I really liked. We would go to
meetings together, and usually hang out afterwards, even if it means
laying around watching TV.
If I went home alone after a meeting, my head would just race.
One more thing, NA meetings tend to focus on recovery, not war
stories about using. When people stick to that guideline, (which
they usually do) it keeps much of the triggers at bay.
Hope this was helpful...
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How do you make the Meth cravings go away?
Can I stop meth on my own?
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